Sorry i haven't written in a long time. I finally graduated my two diploma programs (Paralegal and Administrative Assistant) And have started for my other diploma Tourism and Hospitality Management. The first course of this program is Marketing and Sales.......it has kept me quite busy!!

My daughters 3rd birthday is coming up on the 10th and I am excited. So is she. Oh yeah and she spelt her first word the other day....cat....I was very happy.

I have also started selling things on ebay as well sorta as a part-time job. Really part-time! lol

I have more to write and i will do so in a while but for now this is all folks

God Bless †

jess

Here is a thought, maybe even a suggestion if you have nothing else to go on.

You see most of my friends are not Christians. So i have a hard time witnessing because I know their thoughts and opinions. I know that it shouldnt' matter. Anyways one of my girlfriends and I were talking about God and she told me that she never talks to God. I didn't know what to say except;

"Every time you say "Oh God i wish i could do something or God its a beautiful day or Oh my God please help me" your talking to Him and He is hearing you" She thought about it. Not only did she stop taking Gods name in vain.......because she kept my words in her heart, but when ever she says God again she remembers that He hears her. I know this may sound silly and i am having a hard time putting it into words.......but i was thinking if you could tell people that you knew about it perhaps they would stop saying it so much. I am using it also as a missionary tool. When a friend says that now after i have explained the above i just say "He is listening" it keeps them reminded. When they say Gods name in vain.......i also say God is listening.....it reminds them not to say it. They remember......soon they stop taking Gods name in vain....maybe they only do it around me but at least they are thinking about it. I hope this doesn't sound crazy......LOL

Anyways i have promised my daughter that we would make Apple Crisp tonight so i am going now to do just that.

God Bless †

Jessie Taylor

God is so good. Good isn't even the word to describe God. Amazing! If there was a proper word for God, but i dont' think there is........He is too perfect for words.

Sometimes i look back on prayers i have prayed and sometimes i wonder when He will answer them or if He even will. And i noticed that He always does. Whether you take it as an answer or not. If you pray to be more humble. You can expect some pretty humbling times in your life. In those times do you take it as an answered prayer? No probably not. Or patience. I pray alot for patience. Do i feel like i am any more patient than i was a year ago......no. Not that i have noticed. But guess what...I am! God has put me through some times where i have needed to be patient.....willing or unwilling..the time called for patience. So now I am more patient in that regards. I am more careful what i am praying for now....lol

I asked God to bring me my husband......well it didnt' sound quite like that but you have caught my drift. And in the last half year i have been dating. None of them quite seemed to fit the glove. I started to get depressed about it and people kept saying "your still young". Goodness as a young single person that is definatly one of the last things you want to hear! But back on topic.....I noticed that all these men that i have come to know......have been pieces of him. of who? Well i dont' know yet. lol. I believe that God sent me different personalities. I have found things in these guys that i would like to have in a husband and traits i do not want in a husband. He has answered a prayer that i find a husband........in a sense i am building up to be married. I have found pieces of the one i am looking for. But in all the guys that i have met......none of them had all i was looking for.....close but not quite Then i got to thinking.......I am looking for the perfect man? perhaps i am and if so then i know when i will meet him. I will meet him in Heaven. Jesus is the only perfect man i know. He already loves me and me him. He provides for me and my daughter. He teaches me the things i will need to know in life. He is the lover of my soul. My husband.

I have noticed a lot more other things about prayer and forgiveness and walking in the desert in the last few days.......those thoughts i will share with you in the next entry. Forgiveness.......it is powerful. But you already knew that

May God be with you today †
Jessie

I finished another course today, one down one more to go and then i am all done.....yahooooooooo! I am doing really well. i seem to be facing alot of life decisions that i just keep putting off for fear of making the wrong one. I need to trust that God knows what i need and do as He think best.

I have recently been talking to people on Skype......you know what msn is? well skype is like msn only it is international......i talk to a guy in Italy who speaks italian, i am learning the language quite quickly and he is learning English. It is alot of fun..skype uses a translator. I met Andrea on Language exchange as i thought it would be neat to learn more languages. I currently know a bit of Gaelic, french, japanese, and now italian. I read these languages better than speak them so i would like to be able to speak them too! Anyways Andrea is really interesting. It is funny to notice the differences in culture and stuff. He is going to college to become a PE teacher. It sounds like he is having fun at it.

I ask for prayers in the employment area. I really need to find a job here in the next few weeks so that i don't fall between the cracks in October.....so please keep me in your prayers.

My dd is doing really well. A little smarter and quicker to learn than i had hoped.....lol. But she is doing really well. When i talk to Andrea and Mehdi (french/arabic) and repeat their words she is quick to repeat them too. Since i speak to andrea more she has picked up on some italian. It is really cute when she says the words....lol. I wish this thing provided sound.

Well i hope you are all getting ready for a restful weekend.

God Bless †

Jessie

Hello everyone......sorry i haven't been around for a long time. I have been doing some things I didn't hear back from that job but i have been looking as i am running out of time to get a job.

My dd (darling daughter) is just over the flu i hope. Poor little thing. I feel bad for those who can't understand. But at least she slept alot.......that i was surprised at. I didn't think she would sleep lots but she did and that i am thankful for.

I am almost done school now, this week i start a new course it is only a week long and then i have Communications and that is for a month and then i am completed. I am happy. I have been applying at Hotels.......even though my diplomas are for Administrative Assistant and Paralegal. I find that i do not want to work in a little closed off office. I like to meet and talk to people. I am very people oriented. If a job does not come up i think that i will go and take Tourism and Hospitality Management. I wouldn't mind working in a Hotel. I want to have a spice of life everyday and i find that if i were to work in a Lawyers office i would not get that as much i think it would mostly be the same thing everyday......i need variety.

I went camping with my dd this weekend....it was a blast her first time. Although we had planned to stay the whole weekend we got rained out on sat. So we came home. It is good though because i don't think it would have been fun with my dd sick in the tent

A friend and i spent all night talking by the campfire.......it was some good conversation. Ever hear of the poem Risk? It is a good one.....i think that i will leave you with that one.

Talk to you soon

God Bless †

Jess

RISK
Author unknown

To laugh is to risk appearing the fool
To weep is to risk appearing sentimental
To reach out to others is to risk involvement
To expose feelings is to risk exposing your true self
To place your ideas, your dreams before a crowd is to risk their loss
To love is to risk not being loved in return
To live is to risk dying
To hope is to risk despair
To try is to risk failure
But risks must be taken,
because the greatest hazard in life is to do nothing.
The person who risks nothing,
does nothing, has nothing, and is nothing.
They may avoid suffering and sorrow,
but they cannot learn, feel, change, grow, love, live.
Chained by their attitudes, they are a slave,
they forfeited their freedom.
Only the person who risks can be free

Well i haven't written in a long time. It has been really really hot......to the point of stand-still. Where you just lay there and don't move because if you do buckets of sweat pour down! O_O

Well I applied for a job today and I got an interview. That I am happy about for sure. My daughter can now sing the whole alphabet without help and write her letters. She is a handfull though lately too...lol.

Someone has come into my life at a point that requires some thinking and some decisions to make. Ones of course i don't mind making. It is kinda nice to spend time with that person though. Good conversation and its nice to just be together without being together you know what i mean? LOL

Well I thought i would let you all know what I have been doing lately. And that I am still kicking around here...lol.

May God hold you in His Grip, †

Jess

Today i watched the movie "50 first dates" I am sure some of you have watched it and others haven't. So if you haven't and are wanting to I suggest you don't read this.

I cried...lol. But i tend to be a sap when i watch movies. So this movie (50 First Dates) is a comedy so is Bruce Almighty but I cried in both.....not that they are super sad comedies but I tend to put myself in others shoes a little too easy.

Anyways, the girl in it has a disease where she can't remember anything from the day before. When she goes to bed her whole memory of that day vanishes. So Sandler falls in love with her and spends all these single days getting her to fall in love with him all over again......every single day! A brand new day every day. A new day to find new ways to make her happy and get her to love him....even though he knows that all his efforts will be diminished by the nightfall. He continues this. So this is just a part of the movie that made me think about something.......

What if each of us tried that? Forgot what happened yesterday and carried on fresh today? Easier said than done? YES! But if we tried...would we in essence be happier? Let go of all the hardships of the previous day and look forward to the gift of today? How about trying to get our spouse/family to re-fall in love with us?? Sound silly? I challenge you to try it...for 2 weeks. It sounds easier said than done and it is; but if we smiled a little more and frowned less the world may just be a little happier.
I thought this might be an interesting though to ponder; so i decided to share it with you...go ahead and ponder it

May God hold you all. †

Jess

Ok it is now working.........you can at least read it now.......lol

One life
A thousand opportunities

How many experiences do you think that you could possibly experience in this one life? I keep seeing the horizon as expanding before me.....stretching, calling out to me.

I am not always happy about the things I have done in my life, but that doesn't mean that i didnt' do them. They make me who i am. Sometimes when i am down at the point of some point of my life i keep a simple thought in my head. I do not give up. You must keep going forward in life, sure stop and smell the roses sometimes but don't stand there looking for too long or you will loose self in the past. If you find yourself falling try to catch hold of the ground. If you do fall, stand up quickley and wipe off the dirt, and continue on your way. Too many people of this world stop when they fall, they look to see if there is someway to prevent the fall after it has happened. People will stand there for a long time....not forgiving, being upset, being embarrassed, trying to find their pride, searching for bandaids, all in all living in their past and not seeing that their future is drifting by.

It is not easy to stand up and admit your faults, get over it, stop blaming someone else and continue on your way......and i am certainly not saying that it is a slice of pie for me either, but i do find that there is something else i could be doing than wallowing in self pity. When they say that this life is too short, they are not saying that to fill a silent void, they are saying it because it is. At the end of it all.....when you sit there with your great-grand children what is it you will say to them. What stories will you tell. When your children come to you for advice will you have some ideas or will you stand there and say you never had that experience because you weren't able to live your life through some pain? We all hurt, we all have scrapes and gouges, we all have searched and not always found, we all have been blind and all of us have seen. But have you experienced?
There are so many lives to lead in this one life, are you willing to try them all? Or are you comforable in the life that you are living?
You are telling me that i make no sense, I can tell you think i am writing gibberish, but i tell you.....there is more outside this house, yes i know, it isn't always reasonable, and it is usually impossible, But if your heart is in the right place and you are willing with all your heart and mind then be the explorer you want to be. With that i don't mean go to other countries etc. I mean expand your mind....live outside the box. Whether it be reading about something you have never learned about, or doing something you have never done. It will be different for everyone.

May God be with all of you †

Jessie